Finland. When the narrator of this novel suddenly loses her father and finds her life turned upside down, she looks back to her childhood. As she confronts her memories, it appears to her in a new light, although repainted in a strange hue. The lowest common denominator is the story of this woman and the little girl inside her: a little girl who always wanted to be a boy, telling her own story in the third person. This fragmented narrative, which questions identity, sexuality and our relationship with the world, is the first part of an auto-fictional trilogy in which Helsinki, as a backdrop, evolves over the decades.